A week before the end of the first half term, the girls started taking it in turns to be ill. First off, the youngest one has a cough and cold and heartrendingly asks me ‘Why do I always get ill?’ I really don’t know but she does seem to get coughs and colds a lot more than my older daughter. Maybe it’s because she’s still young. Continue reading “Pre-half term holiday sickness”
It feels like September is almost done even though there is still a week left. This month has been busy again. With the girls going back to school and everyone attempting to get back into a routine things look good for a while and then the first birthday party of the season starts. Continue reading “September almost done”
I’m sitting in the car waiting for one daughter to finish her piano lesson while my other daughter is reading my tax adviser magazine and I’m sitting on my laptop blogging! Hmmm… I wonder which generation we should worry about!
Anyway, this isn’t why I started blogging. We are half way through the school summer holidays and this is the first summer holidays that I will be working in an office job while juggling childcare. So far, getting to the half way point has not been too bad. The first week and a half, we went abroad on holiday, the next week and a half, the girls stayed over at my mums which is an hour away in a different town. That was incredibly hard as I missed them so much, especially as I had just spent 10 amazing days just chilling with them all day long.
This fourth week of the holidays, however, is proving to be a bit more difficult. They want to stay with me all the time. They don’t want to go to their other grandparents’ house or the summer camp I booked them in for which are the only choices they have. I had no idea how everything would work out over the holidays so I had back up plans for every day just in case something happened and I got stuck. Apart from occasionally questioning my reasoning for starting an office job when I could have been working from home and chilling with them over the summer holidays especially while the weather has been so good, it’s been ok.
Anyway, I’m at home two days a week so that helps. However, working in an office-based job does tie me down to our city which is fine most of the time but I do miss just spending holidays at my mum’s chilling with her or with my friends from back home and working around my summer social life. Oh well. I guess I can’t have everything and the grass does always seem greener on the other side.
I don’t, however, miss the lack of boundaries where I constantly worry about finding time to work and then working til late at night. It is good to have fixed cut off times for work. Plus, my daily hours fit in perfectly with the school run so for half the year, life will be good, the rest of them time I will enjoy the chaos.
However, the tax returns are looking good. I have completed quite a few of them and only have two big ones left to do. I still have a few last minute simple tax returns to do which usually don’t come til the last minute, however, they are usually quite easy to do so I don’t normally worry about those. Apart from feeling like I should be doing something more, everything generally seems to feel good at the moment.
Every Friday is Bollywood Night. My husband goes to play football and this is the one night of the week that I don’t have to rush around getting them to be on time. Friday’s we can all relax a little as there’s no school the next day. We also have pizza on Friday night and then I get to watch Indian films that I want to watch. The only reason I can get the girls to watch is because they can stay up later than usual.
Hands Free Mama is an amazing book and Rachel has a way of writing which is very emotional and very raw. The book starts with turning off your gadgets so you can spend more time with your children and partner. However, it goes into more depth and just turning off your mobile phone is not enough, you need to connect and be present for your kids. Continue reading “Hands Free Mama by Rachel Macy Stafford”
I can’t quite believe that my youngest daughter is now off to school. Today is the last day of half days for settling into school. From next week both my daughters are at school. Freedom! Woo hoo! A little part of me is quite glad that school has started and we can get back into a routine. Another part of me is feeling a bit sad that this phase of childhood is over. It’s strange when something is over I want to go back and recapture it, hold onto it a little bit longer. Continue reading “Youngest daughter is now off to school”
The Price of Privilege is another parenting book highlighting the plight of parenting in this day and age. The author is a psychologist who treats a lot of wealthy family kids – especially teenagers. The case studies themselves are enough to make you feel unbelievably sad and unhappy. It gets you thinking about your childhood and that of your kids. You hope and pray that you are doing everything right and the doing your best is enough. But there are so many little incidents that ring true that make you think, is that me? Will that happen to my girls? Continue reading “The Price of Privilege – Madeline Levine, Ph.D.”
As always, things are changing in our house and as usual I am in panic mode which means sleepless nights and worrying about things that are out of my control. Everything always works out for the best in the end so I should just relax and let go of what I can’t control. But as a worry wart, that’s one thing I can’t seem to do. Continue reading “Changes and worries”
In the darkness of the night and the early morning,
When monsters lurk just behind the shadow of the door
And spiders threaten to come out and hang,
A restless stirring, shows the nightmare is in full swing,
A woman creeps out of bed to start the day.
A list of things to do running through her head,
Making sure the girls have everything for school is her first priority
But its an endless list making her angry and helpless at the same time.
This is when meditation needs to be done (and ticked off the list).
A multitasking meditation, deep breaths while ironing,
Knowing that the things that she wants to work on will get left behind again.
When did life become so busy? When did lists become so long?
A loud swoosh as a door opens, brings the woman out of contemplation.
There’s a patter of small feet running across the hall searching for a grown up,
And a big relieved hug from two sleepy girls as they find their mummy.
Maybe life will be frustrating for a while but the big hugs are amazing.
At the beginning of the holidays I was wondering how I was going to cope with both girls for six whole weeks. However, its now almost over and I’m feeling a little sad about it and almost wish the holiday would start again. It’s not been perfect and I’ve had a little help (more than I would like to admit!) from the TV and Ipad and grandparents taking them but otherwise it’s been quite nice having the girls at home. We’ve not done as much school work as I had hoped and we’ve been quite busy trying to get things repaired and updated around the house. But I’ve loved having lie in and not rushing breakfast, and just spending nearly all day chilling. Continue reading “The last few days of the summer holidays”