We’re half way through January and it almost seems a bit late to be talking about new year’s resolutions but for the last three years I’ve been recording and keeping a track of my new years resolution and every year they seem to be basically the same: lose weight, do more exercise, eat healthily, be a good mum, work harder – and this year is more or less the same.
Recently, I read an article in the newspaper about generation x (the one I fall into, I think) and how unambitious they are. I’m not sure that’s entirely true. When I was younger I was fairly ambitious about making my way up the career ladder – but since having kids, what I want has become a lot more confusing. I want to be a full time mum and have a full time career, but the more I think about it, the more I’ve realised that where I am right now is good for now and I’m quite content.
Maybe later on when the girls are older, I might want something different but I can refocus then and I don’t need to have it all worked out right now. I should know by now that things will always change, regardless of how much I plan and think and rethink.
I think mindfulness and meditation are having an effect on me at the moment. So even though it’s a new year, and the time of the year when I normally start twitching and wanting to do something new, I’m going to resist and just keep going as I am but be a little better at it than last year.
Although, the slow panic of getting all the self assessment tax returns done in time is starting to creep up.