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I went on a Reiki level 2 course and for some reason I was very nervous. I wasn’t that keen to go in the first place but then I thought why not. I’ve got nothing to lose. I tried what I learnt on my husband and he said exactly what was in the back of my mind. He said it was like voodoo dolls and obviously that it didn’t work on him. Tbh it does feel like that and I get so worried that if I think bad things I might hurt someone. So I think I will do the case studies to get my certificate and then just stick to the level one style of practice. It’s a little scary! I do like the meditative side to it though.

This week we’ve all been down with a tummy bug and we’re still trying to figure out what to do with my daughters school. She’s got an assessment for the local private school on Tuesday and then I’ll need to give a deposit to secure her place because apparently it is getting quite full. Not sure how much to believe that bit, but I do need a school for my daughter. And obviously I want a good school for her.

With the tummy bug, both my daughters have been at home. One week with them is more than enough especially when I’m trying to work too. I want to be back on holiday. Spending a week with them there wasn’t so bad. I wish my life was a constant holiday!  Although, if it was, I think I would feel guilty for not working and eventually get bored.

It’s just been a busy week. One thing after another without a break.

Quote for the week:

‘Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best.’ – Unknown

Friday Morning

This feels like a two week catch up. My daughter didn’t get the school we were hoping for. We’ve appealed but we’re not very optimistic so it looks like the private school is back on the table. I’ve been sitting here working out different plans on how we will fund this and for how long and whether we can do it for both girls or just one. What a nightmare! But as my husband said we are in the fortunate position where we have this choice. There are people around the world who would be grateful for any education and we’re being fussy about which school we want our daughter to go to!

My grand dad’s operation went well and he is making good recovery. My grand dad was bowel cancer and prostrate cancer. The prostrate cancer they are treating with medicine, the bowel cancer they removed as it was giving my grand dad a lot of pain. Unfortunately, the bowel cancer has spread into the liver. He is making good recovery and hopefully he will be out of pain soon but not sure if the cancer will get better. I’m practicing my Reiki on him. That’s all I have to help. I’m not 100% sure what happens next in terms of treatment.

Also, I need to do more about blogging. I don’t seem to be getting many readers to my blog, so I’ve looked into it and maybe from next week, I’ll join some more blogging communities and comment more, as a start.

Anyway, got a busy day so I’m off now.

Here’s my quote for the weekend and to keep myself positive about schools:

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My first scheduled post

I’m on holiday but I’m still doing my Friday morning post! I’m not writing this while on holiday but decided to see if this scheduler thing works.

If you are reading this on Friday the 17th April, I will have just found out whether or not my daughter has got into her first choice school and also my granddad would have had his operation. I’m still not ready to talk about my granddad and his health but hopefully after the operation, everything will be good and then I can talk about it in relief.

In the meantime, I’ll be enjoying and experiencing the culture of sunny Crete! Yeah right, with two kids? Hmmm… Surviving the holiday with all four of us back in one piece, more like!

On a more positive note:

“A good life is when you smile often, dream big, laugh a lot and realise how blessed you are for what you have.”

Identity

When I was younger I used to think about this a lot. Who am I? The usual teenage angst. However, watching Dexter has made me revisit this again. Obviously I’m half my mum and half my dad. There’s no question about that. But my parents are divorced. I’ve not seen my dad since he left us when I was 8. I know almost nothing about him. When I compare my self to my family, I compare myself to my mum and grandparents and even my aunt. I don’t think there is anything about me that’s like my dad. But I’ve got kids now. Half me and half my husband and I compare them to their grandparents but what about my dad? Obviously they’re their own people as well but I wonder if there is anything about my dad in them. I hope not but who knows?

I wonder if my dad didn’t leave whether I would be the same person. Would I still be an accountant? Would I be married with kids? Would I even have the same friends? I don’t expect an answer to this. I’m not even sure where I’m going with this but I wonder what it is that make me, me? Am I even the real me?

I’ve got two quotes to end this blog:

“Identity cannot be found or fabricated but emerges from within when one has the courage to let go” – Doug Cooper

“Always be yourself unless you can be batman, then always be batman.” Definitely like this one!

Good Friday

It’s Good Friday and I’m back on my blog! The kids have gone to their grandparents for the night so I am free! Although I still got up early, faffed around a bit and then did some work. I took the girls and nieces and nephews bowling and pizza yesterday as they were all on half term. Got it over and done with early in the day and then just chilled for the rest of the afternoon and evening.

I did have a bit of a fright last weekend though. My youngest daughter disappeared for at least 15 minutes although it felt like 15 hours. I think I’ve only just got over it. I’m not even sure I have. It’s made me question everything about being a mum and where did I go so wrong. I’ve written more on here http://www.accountingweb.co.uk/blog-post/youngest-runs I’m glad she’s safe and I’m going to do more to make sure they will always stay safe.

I think I’m always trying to do everything and I need to chill out, decide what’s important and just focus on that. Kids and work in that order. Everything else can wait if need be or I can do it when I do have free time. My fasting didn’t go so well this week, mainly because I took the kids out on the day I fast! Not clever thinking on my behalf.

Quote for the week:
‘We mum’s rub of on our girls. Over time, our way of thinking becomes their way of thinking. If we want to raise kind daughters, we need to start being kind mothers.’ Anonymous

Almost forgot….

It’s Friday! I almost forgot to do this post! The routine I had planned went out the window this week. I had set my alarm clock for 5.30 every morning but only managed to wake up once.

Monday, I snoozed my alarm clock, it is Monday after all!;
Tuesday, my youngest woke up so ended up trying to put her back to sleep;
Wednesday – I went Bikram Yoga so I had to get up;
Thursday, for some reason I was awake at 2.30am and didn’t fall back asleep again til after 5.30;
and Friday, I woke up but didn’t do anything useful and just lay in bed.

Oh well! Start again next week. I can’t wait til the girls start sleeping through the night and stop being scared of everything in the dark. I feel a bit not with it to be honest. Bad news just seems to keep coming through but not ready to talk (or blog) about it yet.

As usual, I thought I’d end this blog with a quote:
‘Happiness is not a station to arrive at, but a manner of travelling.’ Margaret Lee Runbeck

Eclipse Day

I’ve started writing this in almost pitch black at 9.30 am as the eclipse takes over any natural form of light! I am interested in the eclipse but without the special eclipse glasses I’m too scared of it damaging my eyes so I’ve got the TV on in the background.

Starting to get into a bit of routine but its not perfect and while the girls are still small, I don’t think I ever will. I still don’t feel like I’m doing as much exercise as I would like to but I am fasting on Thursday which is, if nothing else, helping with my self control which sometimes spills over into the rest of the week and I’m not getting tempted to snack as much. Today I got up at 5.30 to do some yoga and it felt good and most days I’ve been naturally waking up between 5.30 to 6 so I’m thinking of making that into a bit of a routine.

I didn’t go to Bikram yoga over the weekend and I missed it so much. When I got back to class on Wednesday I felt like an addict, I couldn’t wait! At the moment I’m only going in once a week and the weekends if I’m free but with getting busy with work and changes in class timetable I guess I will have to be happy with once a week! I really love Bikram yoga and I really wish had more time to do it more often. I never want to stop going.

I mentioned I got my phone upgraded last week. The phone I got was Samsung note 4. I like the big screen and the big size in general and for everything except answering the phone it is brilliant. I just need to get used to have such a big phone on my ear. I don’t really use the note part as I have Evernote but I plan to download some kids films which should be useful in emergencies!

Anyway, a quote from my yoga (Mandy Ingber) DVD:
‘If I want to make a change in my body, it starts with a change in my mind’ or something like that.