Rollercoaster!

This year so far has been like a rollercoaster ride.  I can’t believe it’s already July.  It started off nice and chilled and then things just kept happening this year and I feel like I’m always playing catch up.  ‘Once that’s done I’ll be able to relax’.

It’s great working from home. I have the flexibility to work more or less whenever I want but this flexibility also means that some weeks it feels like all I’m doing is working.   Sometimes the kids are in the background wanting things, playing with things and sometimes they’re not.  I want to spend time with them and do stuff with them but there’s always something else I need to do.  With my granddad being ill, I’ve been driving up and down (2 hour round trip) to go and visit him especially with his stay overs at the hospital.  But luckily everything seems good with him at the moment.

My older daughter’s school is still not totally sorted.  We’ve got a back-up school with a private school but we’re still waiting to see what will happen with the appeal.  Then from September things will change again.  I don’t know if it will be easier or worse with the older one being at school.

Also, with work, I picked up more sub contracts (paying for private school has been playing on my mind). They seem to be a lot easier than looking for work for myself which is another issue, possibly for another blog!  But even with work, it got a bit too much so I stopped one subcontract because I can’t physically do all the work and spend time with the kids.  However, even though I’ve dropped one, I still feel like I don’t have enough time but then when I come to do my timesheet at the end of the day, I have no idea where my time has gone.

It’s good to be busy but I don’t think I’m getting the balance right.  I don’t mind working late some nights but I don’t really want to do it all the time.  Also working late has caused me to make some mistakes at work and I don’t want to lose the work I do have as there doesn’t seem to be much more part time, flexible work.  And somehow, I still need to finish toilet training my younger daughter.

I’ve got some time off booked now.  I’m hoping that I can spend at least some of this time to relax and catch up on stuff and hopefully get more organised and not feel so rushed all the time.  And to think that at the beginning of this year, I had planned for a nice, almost relaxing year with a little of bit of work to keep me busy and I planned to do lots of exercise and eat healthily.  Most of that’s all out of the window!

And breathe…

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